Well first, i had a bad chrismas.
And that, wat i did doesnt get appreciated.
Then, I cant go out on countdown.
Is this december cursed or wat.
Yujie is right.
My life is screwed.
I have 2 brothers that beat mi from young.
My mum died early.
And now i have a aunt thats taking care of mi BUT doesnt wanna let mi go out.
I dun mind not going out really i swear.
But wats the point of staying at home watching tv and sleep the whole day.
I tried picking up my book once.
But the thought of the word HOLIDAY makes mi put it down again.
This is a holiday?
I say this is hell man
Yes u didnt see wrongly.
The word is HELL
H-E-L-L
HELL
Sch is like a heaven to me.
And being able to go to sch is the happiest moment of my life(i swear to god thats true)
I dun hate my family.
I just hate myself.
Cause i cant have a proper one.
Passing N should be a happy thing for me.
But i WASNT.
Yes u didnt see wrongly again
Its WASNT
W-A-S-N-T
WASNT
I didnt get the laptop as promised, I got a screwed up christmas and I CANT EVEN GO TO COUNTDOWN.
Now wat kinda life is that?
Isnt it well screwed?
I finally understand that after my mum left.
i got simply NTH ELSE.
I can say that during the 14 days in cambodia.
They are the most beautiful days of my life.
They were bright, and shiny.
The arrival in singapore had made my life dark and thunderous.
Everyday was like hell at home and the onli escape was going out with my friends.
I love my friends.
They are cool people.
Im the uncool one inside.
Im broke and PATHETIC.
Yes the word is PATHETIC.
If u say that 9/10 children in singapore are fortunate.
Im the unfortunate one i guess.
Now the onli thing i can count on is my education.
Nothing else.
Im going to need to focus on my education and leave this place as soon as i can get to uni.
Well..
Guess i'll end it here.


Tears rolled down my cheeks like droplets of a heavy downpour.
Akatsuki sven