Scold mi all u wan and hate mi.
Cause i just dun wan anything to do with u anymore.
This is the best for the both of us maybe.
I said i treat yvonne, i definitely will.
Dun u worry.
Just because of this u wanna scold mi and scream at mi?
Im not ur tool for venting ur anger.
Dun scream and shout at mi as if i owe u.
Liking u is one matter and giving in is another.
I dun have to tolerate all of this.
I dun deserve to be treated this way.
Im not letting anyone use mi again.
I treat u wholeheartedly, but u treat mi as if i owed it to u.
Im just too gullible and simple minded to think u would even like mi.
Its no one's fault but my own.
It was my wishful thinking all along.
I had been suppressing m feelings inside mi.
Its good that i finally can let it all out and have a huge cry.
After all this, maybe i'll really be able to forget u and start all over again.
Sorry, Blame it on me~


Yesterday was a total disaster.
First of all,
Sorry yujie.
Its all my fault i know.
Im a jinx.
Nothing i do ever makes anyone likes mi.
Even glenn and zheng hui.
I feel so bad and rotten.
Its all my fault.
After clarin called, i was on the verge of emotional breakdown.
But i dun wanna breakdown in front of glenn and co as i dun wanna affect their mood too.
So i suppress and suppress.
Till night, after yanting, nigel, sean went down the bus.
I broke down.
I never felt so letdown before.
I was thinking of her nonetheless along the way home.



Condemned and lonesome.
Akatsuki Sven

ps: Leave mi alone to die on my own.