Im wrong.
So wrong.
I guess i do miss u clarin.
U was the only one i ever been so serious with.
I tot i really could give u up.
But instead.
I did a grave mistake.
Fortunately it stopped.
I do think of u everyday and night.
When i got drunk that day.
It wasnt eileen's name that came out from my mouth.
It was ur name clarin.
I didnt let u go..
Its my fault.
I dunno wat happened.
U were still asking mi bout the concert band yesterday.
But after that u disappeared..
I learnt alot of things.
Im not the right guy for u maybe.
But i do wish you'll find someone how cherishes u and loves u more then mi.
Im not a noble man.
I love u as much, or maybe even more.
But its not up to mi to decide u understand?
I do hope u'll give it some thoughts.
Im bad.
Im a rotten guy.
Thats wat i always think.
Im not worthy of u.
U're just too bright for mi i guess.


Drifting far away alone~
Akatsuki Sven


Im still waiting for my destiny~